Just Be

I can't believe it has been two years since my last blog post. So much has happened in two years. 

• I left a company after 10 years, with no job lined up - both scary and a relief
• I worked on my mental health - also scary but absolutely necessary
• I found an amazing guy - we have ups and downs but it's worth it
• I started grad school - not easy at all, with everything going on
• Like you, I'm living through a pandemic and societal distress

Life does not stop. It is in constant motion. It is a perpetual forward force.

I have always been attracted to the future. I plan. I dream. I scheme. I imagine. I LIVE for the future; sometimes I live IN the future. But, these past two years have taught me that we are rarely, fully prepared for what life can bring us. Hell, we are rarely half-way prepared for what life brings us!

What the past two years has taught me is that it is ok to just be. 

It is ok to be still. 
It is ok to be sad. 
It is ok to be happy.
It is ok to be silly. 
It is ok to be sober. 
It is ok to not know.
It is ok to not care.
It is ok to be. 

My priorities have changed in the past two years. I still have dreams of inspiring the masses and sharing my voice with as many people as I can, but even if I inspire a few people and my voice is heard by only a couple, I'll be happy. As long as I am living and applying my efforts towards my dreams and making the people closest to me feel valued and loved, I'm living my best life. 

I don't want miss opportunities to experience today because I'm stuck in the future. I want to have goals. I want to have projects I'm working on. I want to things to look forward to. But I don't want to be so focused on those things, that I miss what's right in front of me - that miss my opportunity to just be.